Like millions of Kerry voters, I took the 2004 election result hard. I was angry about the way the campaign played out, the lines of attack, and the way that Kerry (no thanks to our loathsome press) took hit after below-the-belt hit, then opened himself up for more. Also, I dreaded -- mourned, really -- what Bush would do to our country over four more years. And there was Bush, everywhere on the television and radio, gloating unabashedly, bragging about what he was going to do with his supposed “political capital," strutting and grinning like an ass.
Now I'm thinking that our boy John, famous for rushing the enemy when in a tight spot, may have had an inkling that winning the election wasn't worth the exertion -- ‘Be careful what you wish for,’ and all that. I remember the mumbo-jumbo from the Bush campaign about how Kerry needed to suggest a better alternative if he was going to criticize the way the war was being handled. And I remember him offering a few modest suggestions. But so much had been done wrong by then, what could he really suggest? Actually, I was amazed that the Bush folks kept hammering the lack of alternatives; it seemed only to emphasize the magnitude of the predicament they had placed us in.
So, maybe, on the occasions when Kerry was against the ropes, being battered again on another non-issue out of left field and all of us were yelling, "FIGHT!" Kerry was wondering to himself why exactly Bush would go to such lengths to keep possession of the big fat mess he had made.
Don't get me wrong. I think Kerry was serious about his campaign for the same reasons that many people, like myself, voted for him: Fear of four more years worth of damage. But maybe his heart was not completely in it. Jus' sayin'.
More and more, I think the result may have been for the better. (May have been. Lots more bad can happen in the next three years, not to mention decades of a Scalia S.Ct.) If Bush has really lost his mojo this early on, then there is hope of containing the catastrophe. Moreover, where would we be today if Kerry had won? Congress would still be in Republican hands. The Supreme Court would have reversed the Schiavo decision just so Rehnquist could be kept alive to hold on to his seat for four more years (kidding on that one). And Iraq would still be a scrambled egg. Maybe Kerry would be doing something different in Iraq, saving some American lives, where Bush is stubbornly "staying the course" as if that was a winning strategy and tens of hundreds of our soldiers were not already dead. But I doubt if Kerry could either unscramble the egg or make an omelet from it. We would be hearing so much bull about how good it was going before Kerry took over and botched it, and people would be buying that.